Mad World

My life would be more complete when I get these 3 things: My bonsai tree, himalayan cat and siberian husky. So after work I got myself a nice little Juniper bonsai tree, and made friends with a Bonsai Master as well. Anybody who has been growing bonsai trees for most of his 60 year life and has a several hundred year old bonsai tree in his backyard, passed down from generations defintely deserves the title of Bonsai Master. Then while talking to him, I could suddenly see myself in the old man's place, snipping away at his bonsais, caring for them, nurturing them, shaping them into my image. The Juniper he sold me took 12 years to nurture, so patience is one of the virtues that comes with this art he says. I almost told him that I wanted to come help him tend his nursery in my free time, to help clear all the clutter that had surely gathered over many years of negligence, to give him an avenue to pass down some of his vast knowledge and skill. His son had died many years before. But I still have many other things to do. Like go to the gym, play soccer, tennis, meet up with friends, drinks, clubbing, work. So one's life does seem complete after all. But the thing is that I don't want to commit, lest he expects more. Because expectations and dissapointments go hand in hand. Because tonight a dream died. Because tonight I went jogging around my neighbourhood in the wee hours of the night. And when I sat down to stretch at an intersection, a cat came up to me. Because when I came home to hit the play button on my window media player (it was on random shuffle), my favourite song came out. Gary Jule's remix of Tears for fears Mad World is absolutely magical. And here goes the lyrics. Good night and good luck.

Mad World - Gary Jules
All around me are familiar faces
Worn out places
Worn out faces
Bright and early for the daily races
Going no where
Going no where
Their tears are filling up their glasses
No expression
No expression
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow
No tomorrow
No tomorrow
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles it's a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Children waiting for the day they feel good
Happy birthday
Happy birthday
And I feel the way that every child should
Sit and listen
Sit and listen
Went to school and I was very nervous
No one knew me
No one knew me
Hello teacher tell me what’s my lesson
Look right through me
Look right through me
And I find it kind of funny
I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I’m dying are the best I’ve ever had
I find it hard to tell you
I find it hard to take
When people run in circles its a very very
Mad world
Mad world
Enlarging your world
Mad world